With a brief contemplation of the duration I’ve had in the new phase of things, I realise that there’s a lot that I’m learning about myself.
I’m finding out new things I didn’t know about myself physically, strengthening my brain mentally with new situations and worrying about the assignments of uni; and emotionally with a degree of uncertain growth of what I want and what I’m capable of.
Maybe I fell a little harder than I thought I would. And right now it’s a preventive measure, or maybe just a glimpse at what might have happened if things were a little different.
It took me a while to follow but I’ve come to terms with it. There’s just the bout of temporary insanity.. but then again you never actually answered my question.
“Hold on, feeling like I’m headed for a breakdown and I don’t know why.. but I’m not crazy, I’m just a little unwell, I know right now you can’t tell. But stay a while and maybe then you’ll see, a different side of me.”—Unwell, Matchbox 20
“It is these things that cause me concern: failure to cultivate virtue, failure to go more deeply into what I have learned, inability, when i am told what is right, to move to where it is, and inability to reform myself when i have defects.”—Confucius
In the misty rain that sprays as the wind calmly blows cooling air, I realise the pace at which we’ve walked on may not be as slow as we intended. And now what’s left is me subdued to understand the need to just breathe.