It’s funny when you’re hanging out with good company that you forget that you’re alone and the moment you are by yourself, you get lonely.

Having alone time is great. It allows you to do things that you want, self-reflect, relax or feel at peace with yourself, even if it’s momentary but what happens when this alone time extends too long? Finding yourself is an amazing journey but have you noticed that unless that is the choice you’ve decided for yourself in life at that point of time, it feels more like you’re suffering on your own?

I’m not alone. I’ve been spending an impressive amount of time with my family, which is a good thing cause I only really see them on average 3 months a year but I do yearn for some time with my friends. I realise that I’ve not seen any of my friends in nearly two weeks. It’s depressing. Everyone I know seems to have their own set of friends or they’re really busy with their lives right now that spending time with me is the last thing on their priority list. I can’t help that they’re busy but at the very least reply when I text or call you or send me a message or ring me just to see how I’m doing.

I like making an effort with my friends but sometimes I wonder if my efforts are enough for your attention. We’ve been through some tough and good times so I know the friendship’s there but the one thing I hate is that nobody seems to want to take the initiative. I’m happy for you and I love it when we catch up, but please, don’t make me feel as though I’m not worth your time or that I’m just nobody to you.